The Concert.

OMG. It was like the best concert I've ever been to. It was the only concert I have ever been to. Trey was looking sexy as, he always does, and so was my boy Fabolous. The only thing I was upset about was that they dragged the concert out so long with a lot of home acts and I had school the next day. I didn't get home till about 1:30 and fell asleep at 2:00. Didn't get to take many pictures but my friend Kaylah did so I might have some to show you guys. Now all I can do is have precious memories of that day.

OH What a Wonderful Day.

Guess where I'm going?

A Trey Songz/Fabolous concert.

OMG. I'm so ready. Leaving in a few.

What Has Been Up?

Well, I've just been chilling like always. I have been talking to 187, I might chill with him this weekend, I would've before but my hair has not been point for like 2 weeks I'm falling off.
And I know this.
I will be calling my aunt tomorrow to see when she can do it though.
Real talk.
I went Christmas shopping on Saturday. I got some outfits and some sneakers. I showed my mom and dad what camera I wanted and I showed them the iPod Touch Zune HD that I want. The best part about that whole trip was that I got to go to Build-A-Bear Workshop. OMG, my bear is so freakin' sexy. Lol. I need something to do, I'm mad bored, I always am.
Umm...what to talk about, what to talk about???
If you don't already know, I'm a Youtube fiend, and I have recently been put onto MrChiCity3. This dude is as official as it gets and he's real and funny as hell. I literally sat in front of the computer and watched his videos like all day just laughing at him and whatnot. Might post one of his videos at the end of this post.

Currently Pt.1 So you can always know what I am doing at the moment.
On to the next subject, I'm currently obsessed with pink and black together, pizza, MrChiCity3, and the song 'love affair' by Lil' Twist. I'm almost positive this list will change completely next week.
I'm currently watching Family Guy, one of the best shows ever. In my opinion.
I'm currently listening to 'Love Affair'.
I'm currently looking at my vanity mirror.
I'm currently thinking about O.H.
I'm currently trying to learn how to pin-drop.
I'm currently wearing red and pink nail polish.
I'm currently wishing for school to be over very, very soon.
I'm currently in the mood to jerk.
I'm currently addicted to striped sweaters and skinny jean 'fits.
I'm currently writing a script for a short film.
I'm currently wearing my PJs.
I'm currently experiencing a headache.
I'm currently looking for a job.

Goodbye.

Snow day.

I was so effin' happy when my mom told me we had a two-hour delay, that instantly meant to me NO SCHOOL. Why?
It was already a half day today and we get out at 11:45, we have to be at school by 7:45.
That would have meant I would be at school at 9:45 and would've been at school for two hours. Why would I even do some stupid ish like that? Lol.

---On another note, I know I don't post as much as I used to, but to be honest I have no time and I have nothing interesting to really talk about_*as if I do any other time*_ but yeah. I'm probably going to start posting again after I get this project for English done it's due tomorrow and I have yet to have written my minimum of 5 journals. So I'm just going to get started on that enjoy the pictures.

snow day.

AHHH PIMPLE. okay so its not that bad

before. after.

AA Meeting

Hello, My name is Charlay D. and I am an attention addict or as I like to call it an attention whore. I don't know how it started. But I do know why. I feel like I need someone to make me happy. I hate that I feel that way and I've tried time and time again to not depend on others for my happiness, but it always ends in a fail. I don't take it as far as dressing ridiculously slutty or fucking every guy that I see. I just have to have someone available to talk to at all times. Just so I can feel good about myself.
I'm young and I think this is a bit much for me to handle.
I just hope and pray that it doesn't get any worse. I'm in the process of trying to overcome this and so far its coming along. I hurt mad people in the years of this.
O.H. was one of the people that were used for my own personal benefits and for that I say sorry to him. He wasn't the only one though. I'm sorry to all of the people that I have used for my benefit. Once I was done with them I just stopped talking to them with not so much as a good-bye and I gave them no reason. I always felt bad about that. I'm the type of person who actually has a conscience. Lol.
Well that's all. I just thought it was time that you all know the truth. I'm free...kinda.

I'm gone.

last vacation day.

So today is the last day of my thanksgiving break. We had a week. It was a long overdue break that was definitely needed. I am ready to go back to school though because I need distractions from what is going on in my life at the moment.

Bad way to deal with things. I know.
I have mad homework and work to do and I'm just starting right now that's really bad, but I'm a procrastinator so what else can you expect.
I have a Christmas list. Very short.

• Sony Cybershot T90(pink)

• iPod touch

• Obsessive Compulsive Lip Tar (anime)
  

*clothes and shoes aren't needed on the list. I get them regardless.

It's not really anything to get for Christmas anymore and I'm realizing that as I get older. I can't believe I'm actually getting more mature.Lol. I'm such a silly person, that it's weird.
PEACE[im out]
Oh yeah. My mom's present to me is giving my room a much needed makeover. Overly happy about that.

i had to do it.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE.
hope your food was as good as mine was.

why?

I was at Karn's with my mom yesterday and she was buying meat for one of her friends for a party later that night.
Anyway.
It was an old head, not that old maybe early 20s but old enough. He was a hot jawn too, so like every time I would look in his direction and/or at him. He would be looking at me and that made me think that I stay attracting old heads.Weird.
Should I be scared? Maybe. That's kind of scary.
So the question is: Why do I attract old heads?

In other news, I have a new jawn boo-thang. Lol. He's official though. Just started talking to him. We'll call him....187. For reasons that you will soon learn.
At first my mom wanted me to talk to him then once she learned some information on him, she decided against it. The reason was and I quote my mother on this:

Me: "Why can't I talk to him?"
Mom: "Because he's fucking and you not fucking."......."187*"

Now my mom does curse and awful lot but this just caught me totally off guard with this that I almost choked on my Capri Sun. I couldn't stop laughing because it was like the funniest thing I had heard that whole day. In the end I still ended up getting his number and talking to him. My moms will be aight.
Fun day yesterday. Yes, it was.

Happy Monday Peoples.

*187-homicide.
funny, right?

listening to: "Love You More" by Ginuwine

make that money

been filling out mad job apps. its time for me to get off of my lazy ass and get back out there and start working again tired of getting money from the 'rents. i haven't been working since august of '08. long ass time right. i know. i feel like such a idk → insert whatever here←.
thats all.

have a safe weekend everyone.

no title

he's a bitch,he's a bitch,he's a bitch,he's a bitch,he's a bitch,he's a bitch, he's a bitch, he's a bitch, he's a bitch, he's a bitch, he's a biiiiittttcccchhh.
[to the tune of dora the explorer's 'im the map' song]

no need to explain he knows who he is.
PISSED OFF MODE!
im out.

just for me

just washed my hair.well not just its been a few hours but anyway, I got done washing my hair for the first time with box braids in my hair.
not a difficult task, but also not the most easiest one also.the most shockinq thinq about this is what I used to wash my hair with thouqh.
I used just for me.yup I said it.just for me hair milk shampoo.it worked super well.
did i really just say super?
but yeah it worked really well. which was suprisinq.it was like a last resort type thinq because I had just run out of shampoo before I got my hair done and I didn't feel the need to buy more because I felt as if I wouldn't need it for a while.WRONG.
yeah so I will put this down as a success and maybe I will actually get these products for my hair. maybe.

p.s. I am so ready to just bc my hair but then again I don't think I will know what to do with short hair because I haven't ever had so little hair. I'm also thinking about changing my bc date from my birthday 4.30.10 to 8.01.10 so that I can have a year worth of pure natural hair instead of just 9 months. we will just have to see.

as of now my hair sorta looks like this. just way shorter.lol.

so

remember how i had said that O.H. and I were supposed to be chilling Wednesday or yesterday?
well it didn't happen. i was type mad because it wasn't like i didn't want to go and chill with him it was because i had mad work to do for that fuckin' stupid ass school. excuse the language.
which btw is where i'm typing this. so you know idgaf at all.

but yeah he texted me and here is the convo:

O.H.: hmm
me: hmm what?[when i knew damn well what he was talking about]
O.H.: mrs. no show
me: umm i didn't know how to get there.
O.H.: ugh thats why you text
me: yea you right about that.

we had other words but that's all you need to know to understand the jist of the situation.

so i'm going to have to hit him up today and get this settled or whatever. because frankly i'm just sick of not taking risks and whatnot. but i'm going to save that for later today because i have to finish this busy work.

and wtf did i use Christmas colors for the joint. i must be ready. lol.

updated Christmas list coming soon. old one → here ←



random ass picture ⇈⇈

banner

messed up i know. but i'm trying my best to get it to look at least decent. just bare with me.

goodnight bros. school tommorow. ugh.

If I'm going to be a symbol of something, I'd rather have it sex than some other things.

I would just like to say that i officially love Betty Boop. not sure why. i just do. maybe it's because she was seen as a sex symbol and i need some self confidence or some ish like that. then again maybe I'm just looking for someone who i can say is my favorite character.
idk.
whatever it is i love her at the moment but at any given time that love can stop because i switch it up all the time with stuff like this. i can honestly say that i admire her even though she is a fictional character.
Do i have a twisted mind for admiring a fictional character?
let me know. but anyways that's all i wanted to say. another random ass post about not shit. you know how it is.

peace bros.



listening to: 'Holla If You Need Me' by Trey Songz

maybe t-mobile is whack...

my phone was working fine up until about 6:30 ish. now the phone is sayin' i have no service what kind of shit is that? i got people to text. they fuckin' up. FOR REAL.
its bad enough that my phone is a wack samsung but i have t-mobile too, i'm about to get put on my brother's verizon because this isn't going to be working for long.

sorry for the profanity. im very upset.
this is my last post for the day because im going absolutely too hard talking about nothing.
wack phone ↴

wack face↴

i don't give a fuck like a celibate chick.

He aprendido algo de español que empiezan hoy:

los labios de bomba, caderas pequeñas, y mis uñas estancia hecho

esta imagen me hizo saber que ↴


need help to translate??? ask me.
im official with spanish even though i hate well dislike the class as a whole

listening to: 'go get it' by vixen ent.

oh yeah. im talking to O.H. again we are on good terms for now. and we are supposed to chill next Wednesday, it would of been this Wednesday but stupid science fair got in the way.

adios hermanos[bye bros]
looks way better in english, don't you think so?

hair.

i absolutely love my hair on this pic. it is the best yet.
[ignore all the mess in the b.g.]

ehh.

"tight like a chick who ain't never lost her v-card"

dope ass line am i right or am i right?
this was supposed to be posted yesterday when i was posted at the crib bored but the dumbass internet wasn't trying to work anymore.

so now im in Spanish class.
muy aburrido.
but thats all i really wanted to tell you guys

im contemplating on texting O.H. tomorrow but idk really if i should or not. post on that here.

peace bros.
hope your Thursday is going to be a good one.

oh yeah pink and red are like my favorite colors;at the moment any way. i switch it up so much. lol.

listening to: 'im goin' in' by lil wayne and drake

funniest moment of my day.

i was on the bus going home and it was mad crowded today for some reason. so i was just sitting on the bus ,mad, because it was all packed [but i did have a seat thouqh so im thankful] but it was like this special needs person on the bus and he kinda stuck. nah fuck that. that nigga smelled like straight piss. and the dude he was sitting by was like:

---'you smell like piss,bra'

now me being the person that i am started laughing now i was the first one who heard it the first time he had said it so they were looking at me like WTF??? but i didn't care because it was mad funny.
then he said it again a couple of stops later and he moved from the seat he was in to a different one and this time the special needs dude said

---'i do not' and hit dude with his lunch bag??? im guessing it was.

shit was HILARIOUS AF.
oh yeah my oldhead wasn't on the bus today, kinda upset. lol.
and i just figured out that blogging is so much effin' fun like seriously. and im taking mad pics lately of absolutely nothing at all. but thats just me for you.

im out bro

listening to: 'way 2 many chickz' by new boyz

i was eating ritz bitz in this pic too. lol.
↑↑↑random pic of me and my bags, homies,friends,whatever you↑↑↑ wanna call em.

i know its f'd up my boy ,not bf, tarik took it so what you expect. hahaha. kidding.


shoutout to tarik. love you.

monday morning message.

"You are beautiful(: I know Monday mornings can drag, and our outfits or hair isn't much of a help but just remember that you're a beautiful being under God."

--shoutout to Abi for this.

let me tell you this made my day or morning. because my hair was not cooperating and its not done so i was oh so very frustrated this morning. i was wearing my favorite hoodie so that made my day a lil better also. it always does.


it was like the perfect message because i was about to not qo to skoo and call it a day. please believe me[jody's mom voice from baby boy] .lol.

yo its this older dude that be on the bus i take home from skoo that 3:40. if i was just a couple years older i would be on that.for trill. ima have to flick him up one day. on the sneak tip of course. he reminds me of O.H. but we aren't qonna talk about that.

natural hair.

im bouta just cut it off.
the relaxed ends of course.
its about an 1 1/2 of natural. i just measured with my ruler.
i could probably rock that. ehh. i know im not qoinq to cut it off now anyway. cuz i already set a date and i cant go off track with certain schedules. just the way i am.


GIMME THAT BECKY.[not literally.]

t.g.f.b

thank God for blistex.
lol. it does wonders.

happy sunday everyone.

WTF???

maybe its me and maybe its not.
you tell me.

so remember O.H. from a previous post?

yeah so anyway.
he texts me yesterday talkinq about "wassup"

p.s. mind you i haven't talked to him for like 3 or 4 weeks, so shit is definitely not koo between us at all.

and i just went alonq with the flow and was like "chillinq chillinq". then he texts back sayinq and i qoute "how you been STRANGER"
then i fell asleep cuz i was mad tired lol.

but then today he texts me about 12 am. so this like just happened. this is the summarized version but you can get the jist of it from this:

O.H. : wassup?
me : just chillinq listeninq to music.
O.H. :ugh like always damn why you been on some STRANGER shit lately
me : i dont think i been on some stranger ish lately. why do you feel that way?
O.H. :cuz you never hit me up anymore
me :i been busy with skoo and plus you always hit me up first. so...?
O.H. :(some unnecessary bs)
me:what?
O.H. :oh nothing STRANGER go back on ya funny tip den
me :nah i wanna talk about this
O.H. : ok so talk about it STRANGER
me :stop callinq me stranger and how am i acting funny?
O.H. :its coo maybe you just changing or im trippin but dont trip go back to listenin to music or whatever you was doin
me : aiqht whateva

[convo over]

now please tell me WTF was that? like seriously. and need i remind you this niqqa is older then me acting like he my age or at least thats what i feel like. mainly cuz he didn't wanna talk about it. like WTF???

idk shits just real crazy lately. and i didn't need this to add on to my lists of things
should i just let this qo or what. im not sure. this is like my best friend with somethinq more. ima figure it out soon...i hope.

im out

listeninq to: best i ever had by drake

'cuz she hold me down everytime i hit her up'

and why the fuck did he keep puttin STRANGER in caps like yanamean?

"EDITED" pic

dont really know. i dont ever know. lol.
just decided to bloq that pic that i so called 'edited' but whatever.
i just think it looks mad dumb now. but i feel that way about every picture after a certain time.

tell me what YOU think.

watchinq on tv: Glee [funny ass show.]
listeninq to: She A Model by YG [jerk sonq.]

bye bros

im out.

bored.

i was supposed to be doinq my essay for english class but
i qet distracted so easily. i eventually finished after numerous hours of doinq absolutely nothinq at all.
but isnt that just the story of my life.

anyways umm nothinq really new qoinq on.

random thouqhts:

• been downloadinq mad sonqs lately hope i don't qet a virus
  
• need to qet a new hairstyle this one is qettinq old
• also need new phone---upgrade
• new lotion: blackberry vanilla....it smells so dope.
• just took a sec. to itch my thiqh.

well im qettinq a headache im bouta qo take a tylenol or ibuprofen and take a nap to qet rid of it im out
peace bros

Who Can Relate?

so so so sooooo true. lol.

two new thinqs.

i learned about myself today:

1. i have a hand fetish[weird riqht?]
2. im obsessed with oreos...best cookie ever.

posted a pic of my [insert affectionate pet name here]

listeninq to: the ranqers 'like chanqe'

"she a hot chick plus she qot bunz"-spotliqht from above sonq

just words

im gettinq so cocky, ima start rockinq condoms [lol] -New Boyz 'Turnt'

lovinq that line.

new shit qoinq on:

• alot on my mind (savinq that for a later post)
• qot mad shit to do for school[busymode]
• somethinq like a friend name: B. [not really new]
• newly addicted to Ritz Bitz Sandwiches: Peanut Butter
• been wearinq bunz alot lately

listeninq to: New Boyz "Cashmere"

what it be like...

some say im rude. some say im a jerk.
some call me an a-hole cuz i do 'em dirt.---YT

describes me to a T today.[lol]

happy sunday
and God bless everyone.

i finally qot it done. yay!!!

what may i be talkinq about?
my eyebrow piercinq.
its so freakinq dope.
i ♥ ♥ ♥ it.

also qot 2 coats[winter.is.cominq]
and a bomb vest[pic.coming.soon]

well thats all.

have a wonderful saturday everyone.

a lil sad...why? here it is.

so since i haven't been on this bloq thinq for a lonq time there is someone who i will call [O.H.] okay?

so a lil backqround on our relationship [as.friends]. we have been talkinq for about 1 1/2 to 2 years now. how we met? lets just say we crossed paths throuqh somethinq or other. we text, we talk on the phone. basically as time qoes on it doesn't matter if he wants to admit it or not he was catchinq feelinqs and so was i, [no.need.to.front]. i definitely wouldn't say love because to be honest i don't know wth that means. any ways a time comes where we have a interestinq[well.not.so.much] convo.

O.H.: you should come to my house and we should chill or whatever.
me: idk.
O.H.: why you dont kno?
me: never mind we can do it on one of my half days[half day every wednesday]
O.H.: aiqht.

end of convo.

one thinq i didn't say he was older then me, not way way way older but old enouqh.

so im contemplatinq whether i wanna do it or not.
what do yall think i did?
a. went to chill
b. chickened out
c. left the state or country[lol]

hint: not c

well if you quessed b you hit it riqht on the nose.
so he qot over it time passes and every now and then he asks me to chill.
everytime i chicken out. quess im somewhat of a punk[dont.qet.it.effed.up.thouqh.i.will.whoop.some.butt]

so just this pass week he asked me aqain and im like i cant do it.

and O.H.'s last text to me was:
lmao i give up.

since then i haven't been in contact with him and we text like everyday or atleast everyother.
two questions came to mind:
is this how it ends? and what does this even mean?
i admit im a bit sad, but it was my fault so oh well.
life qoes on.
if it was a mistake, ima just take it as a loss.

p.s. it was mad other stuff that i didn't put on here but hey i qotta keep some ish to myself riqht.
if you don't have privacy,what do you qot.

p.s.s. eyebrow piercinq tommorow. cant wait

im out bro ]:

weird video...

fake or real?[idk.]
this is the video that i watched.



maybe this kid has some mental problems or somethinq but he seriously needs t0 qet checked out
IMMEDIATELY.

anyways im out for the day[possibly.]

peace bro.

p.s. oh yeah i failed my math test as[expected] thouqh so no suprise there.

hmmm. bored so i decided to...

write a bloq[duh!]. but its one thinq that i didn't tell the blog. im qoinq[natural]. no i didn't bc[bigchop] but im planninq to do so on my birthday[4.30.10]. im just transitioninq riqht now so ima try to keep my hair in braids and whatnot.

anyways i just been thinkinq about what i want for Christmas and surfinq the net for these thinqs of course and i came up with this

Christmas Items:[noorder]
1. Apple iPod Touch 3rd Gen
2. Nikon CoolPix S230
3. G-Shock[pink,yellow/blue,skeleton]

thats it really.

oh yeah and im qettinq my[eyebrow] pierced on friday can't wait.

listeninq to: 'delirious' by Vistoso Bosses

umm..another day antoher somethinq

anyways i was supposed to post somethinq yesterday. but i qot distracted it happens [alot] and then i was sleep for like the whole day until i went to qet food[ialwayswakeupforthat].

but my day was overall okay[iquess]. fell asleep on tha phone with someone[special???maybe]

thinqs that happened:[warninq:maynotbeworthreadinq]
1. you know when people say 'when you assume, you make a ass out of u and me'...i just qot that for tha first time and i always use it.
2. took a math test[fail/pass???] and spanish quiz[fail/pass]
3. new book im readinq: 'life isn't all haa haa hee hee' by Meera Syal[enqlishclassassiqnment]

well that was excitinq. im outties bro. JERKIN!!!

sonq im listeninq to: 'bite my swaq' by Asia Lynn[jerksonq]

p.s. im up mad early too.

1st Day One tha Job...

bloqqinq job that is lol. really don't know what to say. a friend wanted me to try this out so i said 'hey, why not?'. but anyway my day was a normal day basically. so happy its thursday because that means tomorrow is friday and tha weekend is here [finally!!! yay]
anyway umm whateva and blah blah blah. happy weekends to everybody

see ya
ttfn