What Has Been Up?

Well, I've just been chilling like always. I have been talking to 187, I might chill with him this weekend, I would've before but my hair has not been point for like 2 weeks I'm falling off.
And I know this.
I will be calling my aunt tomorrow to see when she can do it though.
Real talk.
I went Christmas shopping on Saturday. I got some outfits and some sneakers. I showed my mom and dad what camera I wanted and I showed them the iPod Touch Zune HD that I want. The best part about that whole trip was that I got to go to Build-A-Bear Workshop. OMG, my bear is so freakin' sexy. Lol. I need something to do, I'm mad bored, I always am.
Umm...what to talk about, what to talk about???
If you don't already know, I'm a Youtube fiend, and I have recently been put onto MrChiCity3. This dude is as official as it gets and he's real and funny as hell. I literally sat in front of the computer and watched his videos like all day just laughing at him and whatnot. Might post one of his videos at the end of this post.

Currently Pt.1 So you can always know what I am doing at the moment.
On to the next subject, I'm currently obsessed with pink and black together, pizza, MrChiCity3, and the song 'love affair' by Lil' Twist. I'm almost positive this list will change completely next week.
I'm currently watching Family Guy, one of the best shows ever. In my opinion.
I'm currently listening to 'Love Affair'.
I'm currently looking at my vanity mirror.
I'm currently thinking about O.H.
I'm currently trying to learn how to pin-drop.
I'm currently wearing red and pink nail polish.
I'm currently wishing for school to be over very, very soon.
I'm currently in the mood to jerk.
I'm currently addicted to striped sweaters and skinny jean 'fits.
I'm currently writing a script for a short film.
I'm currently wearing my PJs.
I'm currently experiencing a headache.
I'm currently looking for a job.

Goodbye.

a lil sad...why? here it is.

so since i haven't been on this bloq thinq for a lonq time there is someone who i will call [O.H.] okay?

so a lil backqround on our relationship [as.friends]. we have been talkinq for about 1 1/2 to 2 years now. how we met? lets just say we crossed paths throuqh somethinq or other. we text, we talk on the phone. basically as time qoes on it doesn't matter if he wants to admit it or not he was catchinq feelinqs and so was i, [no.need.to.front]. i definitely wouldn't say love because to be honest i don't know wth that means. any ways a time comes where we have a interestinq[well.not.so.much] convo.

O.H.: you should come to my house and we should chill or whatever.
me: idk.
O.H.: why you dont kno?
me: never mind we can do it on one of my half days[half day every wednesday]
O.H.: aiqht.

end of convo.

one thinq i didn't say he was older then me, not way way way older but old enouqh.

so im contemplatinq whether i wanna do it or not.
what do yall think i did?
a. went to chill
b. chickened out
c. left the state or country[lol]

hint: not c

well if you quessed b you hit it riqht on the nose.
so he qot over it time passes and every now and then he asks me to chill.
everytime i chicken out. quess im somewhat of a punk[dont.qet.it.effed.up.thouqh.i.will.whoop.some.butt]

so just this pass week he asked me aqain and im like i cant do it.

and O.H.'s last text to me was:
lmao i give up.

since then i haven't been in contact with him and we text like everyday or atleast everyother.
two questions came to mind:
is this how it ends? and what does this even mean?
i admit im a bit sad, but it was my fault so oh well.
life qoes on.
if it was a mistake, ima just take it as a loss.

p.s. it was mad other stuff that i didn't put on here but hey i qotta keep some ish to myself riqht.
if you don't have privacy,what do you qot.

p.s.s. eyebrow piercinq tommorow. cant wait

im out bro ]: